You see, my belief in that statement is even stronger now, than when I wrote those words almost seven months ago.
It is not an understatement to write that my world, my life, looks radically different than it did then. And in this crazy, fallen world, I don't think I'm alone in my circumstances.
You see, seven months ago, I was married. I owned a house. But I also lacked peace. And joy. And worst of all, I had long ago jettisoned my dependence upon God.
Let me be clear, my lack of peace and joy were my choices. And I was very much aware that I was helpless to navigate the challenges that were before me. I was calling upon Jesus on a regular basis to deliver me from the numerous challenges that I was facing. And I very much believed that the Bible taught that even in the middle of challenging circumstances, God will always provide a path that leads to peace and joy. However, when in the throes of chaos, I still sought my way before seeking Him.
And my way will never lead to true peace and joy.
So though life looks very different now, there are certain constants that have thankfully remained the same.
God still loves me.
I have friends and family who love me as well.
I have a job that is fulfilling and filled with people who strive to support each other in good times and bad.
I have seen the handiwork of God despite the chaos, unbelief, and storms of the past few months. And even more important, I have felt the presence of God and His power upholding me when I could no longer stand.
I have learned anew, that His faithfulness is unparalleled, and cannot be compared to anything else in my life. And though I am still prone to seek my own counsel, my foundational beliefs are stronger, and more influential than they were seven months ago.
So despite my lack of faith and failure to seek Him above all, He was faithful. And though my story is not what I would have written, His plans are perfect, even when they are unfathomable.
